Or maybe it will show that my writing skills have dropped precipitously.
Hello, Doctor. Should I just sit down and start, like the
other times? I don't know why you have
to hear this again, I know that you've got it all on file already. Don't worry, I don't mind saying it
again. I keep hoping that this time I'll
catch something I missed before, something to reassure me that it's not all
just my delusions. Anyway, it all
started with a man.
I didn't notice the man until he was
almost out of sight, turning around the corner into the dirty alley. Past the group of daily smokers getting their
nicotine fix, past the homeless bum, his grimy fingers outstretched pleadingly
for change. All I caught was a flash of
gray, plain clothes that vanished against the graffiti and murky shadows
marring the cement walls of the alley.
I gave him no second thought, of
course; that was the only time I laid eyes on him in that day. As I think back now, I realize that I never
even caught a glimpse of his face. He
was simply another back of a head, no different from the dozens of clients that
I see each day. Even with them, I have a
name, a face to connect to, even if after a while all their tears seem to swim
together.
I didn't see him again until the
next week. I was leaving the office,
grateful to be outside even in the smog of the city after having to deal with
sobbing parents and growling middle-aged men, an endless list of average joes
lining up to present their pitiful problems to me in hopes of getting money or
revenge.
He was wearing the same gray
clothes, had the same black-gray hair, and was ducking into the same
alley. Once again, I spared no conscious
thought on him, but I did glance into the alley as I walked past. There was no one in sight.
I think I might have wondered about
it for a second or so to myself, now that I look back on it. I mean, where could he have gone? At the time, I just assumed that he had gone around
a corner, or into a door, or maybe even hopped the tall fence in back. I didn't care; the only thing on my mind was
getting home to my bed and the still only half-empty bottle perched on the top
shelf of my refrigerator.
Part 2 to come soon!
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